I keep checking my email
but the results are not there yet
The long weekend will mean I have to wait
I did my best, I answered the questions given
Even the ones I didn’t fully understand
My answers seemed so rushed
That deadline came so quickly
My skin became quite prickly
Anxiety made me sickly
Just staring at my screen
For hours, my fingers on the keyboard so still
The words failed to flow
But right towards the limit
I just started to write with excitement
And there before me was a complete assignment
Referenced and all
It was less joy and more relief
But in the end there’s still the belief
That maybe, somehow
I actually did quite well
It’s hard waiting
But anticipation growing
These seeds of ambition I’m sowing
That soon this learning journey
Will shake off all the worry
Of making mistakes
I don’t yet know what it takes
But each day a little closer
To donning those gowns
And knowing why I’ve started this
To seeing this through
To a certain degree…
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Well the results came back
And it seems that all that concern
The days of being uneasy
Were all unfounded
The result I was desiring
Was there in front of me
Much better than I feared
In fact even better than I had dreamt..
Onto the next one
With more confidence
I’m working hard
And as I go I’m learning
To keep on yearning
For more from myself
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Result of my third assignment came through yesterday
Slightly lower mark than previously
But I shouldn’t be disappointed
I put so much pressure on myself
Seeking perfection
When all I need is direction
To the way to proceed
Longing for Gods lead
And I find that He walks beside me in this journey
Through studies
Through learning
Through this new season
One lesson at a time
But even when I can’t hear Him
I am reminded that
The teacher is always silent during the test
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